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OMG THIS WEATHER NEEDS TO SIT THE HELL DOWN.

I'm aware that weather can't actually "sit the hell down," but it should stop.  There are like four tornadoes floating around, some of which passed through my hometown and went under B-Ville.  I am forced to stay inside the apartment instead of being able to move from place to place because it's a damn monsoon outside right now.  It's very inconvenient.  I am soaking wet due to a Taco Bell adventure...which was most likely a mistake.  Places in Arkansas are getting wrecked right now.

......

I remember when I liked the rain.

agian...i just suck

I really need to learn to just keep my mouth shut.  That is all I'm going to say about the title of this post.

ANYWHO:

My car is being purchased tomorrow!!!!



I am sooooo excited to finally have a car again.  I won't be able to drive it for a while, but it will be mine.  I haven't had a car since December since some people think it's just so much fun to steal cars from poor college students during finals week.

Unfortunately, I have work to do tomorrow so I must end my...rant?

ANNOYING PEOPLE

Some people just annoy the everliving shit out of me.  I can't help it.  I have no clue why, but some unfortunate individuals are just meant to be hated by me.  They usually start out okay, but something they do will start eating at me until I'm a giant bundle of rage and I want to scream every single solitary time they open their mouths.

Recently I have grown to fricking LOATH one of my fiance's friends.  I don't know why, but his voice annoys me, his being annoys me, his hair annoys me, his giant honker hanging off his face annoys me, everything about this person annoys me.

Unfortunately he's in the room right now and he won't FUCKING SHUT UP!!!!!!  I want to scream.  All I really want right now is for Jonathan to come to bed, but this person just keeps fucking talking.

End rant.

SHUT THE HELL UP AND SIT DOWN SOMEWHERE

I'm just a holy fool, oh baby it's so cruel, but I'm still in love with Judas, baby!

I love Lady GaGa's new song Judas.  Like...I'm probably slightly obsessed.  I don't understand the line about an ear condom though...

Anyway I thought more funny pictures would be nice:

Lady GaGa

Rihanna

Ke$ha

feelings of omg i really suck

I became incredibly stressed yesterday.

I had to read an entire book for my anthro class, and despite having read from the time I was fully awake yesterday to the time I was asleep I still didn't get finished until this morning.  I took the quiz and it wasn't that bad.  I feel like I did ok-ish, but this isn't what stressed me out so much...

So I'm laying down with Jonathan and the conversation is as follows:

Jonathan:  Did you finish that book?
Me:  No, I'm going to speed read it in the morning.
Jonathan:  Don't you have a paper due?
Me:  ...no...
Jonathan:  ...Psych?...
Me:  OH FUCK!!!!  [covers face]  I think I'm gonna cry.  Oh my God I'm actually crying about this right now...


I can not begin to tell you how stressed and freaked out I automatically became.  It was not cool.  I pretty much stayed stressed, shaky, and teary eyed until Jonathan was asleep and I felt it would be safe to self-medicate with cough syrup.  I want to sleep and stayed that way all night, but I had freaky dreams.  As in Lyon College became a church and Jonathan was there with all these women in big poofy dresses because they were all gonna dance to Christmas music and Jonathan wanted me to stay but I couldn't and people got mad at me when I was trying to leave because I was stepping on dresses but I had to get this flash drive to Mr. Roddy who happens to be a vice principle at my high school because if I didn't he was gonna lose his job. And yes, that all had to be one sentence.

Anywho, I managed to finish the book, take the quiz, and write the paper for psych.  I did have to skip my theatre class though :/  Oh well, I feel ok right now.

selective ocd and sexual deviance

I came to the realization one night listening to the Tron: Legacy soundtrack that I am incredibly OCD in the shower.  I have a set routine that I MUST follow to feel comfortable about my cleanliness:

1.  Shampoo hair
2.  Condition hair
3.  use Proactive on face and upper back to prevent acne
4.  wash my body
5.  shave my legs
6.  shave my underarms(armpits just sounds icky)
7.  shave my...well...you know

And it continues when I get out of the shower as well:

1.  dry off my body
2.  towel dry my hair with one side of the towel
3.  flip it over to the other side and dry some more
4.  flip it upside down and dry with that side
5.  flip it over and pile my hair on top of my head

Oh! There's another process as well:

1. dress my bottom half
2.  unwrap hair
3.  use root awakening spray*
4.  dress my upper half

I have to do it this way.  If I mess up the routine it bothers me, thus leaving me feeling unbalanced.  It's really silly when I think about it.

To get away from my showering habits...
We talked about sexual deviances is intro to psych today.  For some reason I think I'm gonna get a perfect score on that section of the exam.  I'm fascinated by things of sexual nature.

*I've been using the John Frida root awakening shampoo, conditioner, and leave in spray.  It's wonderful so go try it.

this year...

I look back on this year slightly disappointed.  As far as academia goes I pretty much failed epically.  I'm disappointed in myself because I know damn good and well I could have done much, much better(especially first semester).  I'm aware some of it was beyond my control, but there were things that could have been helped.

While I may not have gained much academic knowledge I learned a lot about myself. I don't by any means think I wasted time here.  I may have screwed up but maybe I needed to.  If I had to go back and do it all again there isn't much I would change.  All the choices I make, whether good or bad, make me the person I am right now.

For the most part life is good...I don't plan on changing that.



Well, I'm super stressed and have a lot to do.  Consider this my one night of fun ;)

yeeesssssss

I'm Terrible

I suck at life.
Ok, maybe I don't completely suck at life, but I did something bad today.  Not only did I break that whole Lent thing by purchasing a pair of sandals I did not need, but I drank a coffee drink too.

1.  I gave up shopping for Lent.
2.  I'm allergic to caffeine and now I hate life.

While the sandals are wonderful I still didn't need them plus my bank account took a bit of a hit and I still haven't mailed payment for a ticket I got on the way to Memphis with Jonathan.   I feel pretty lousy about some of the choices I've made lately.  I could really be doing better.

On a positive note:
I have the funds to pay the ticket, Scottish Fest is this weekend, I've been going to the gym and getting a fantastic workout, and I have new yoga things and chacos on the way because my gram loves me.



...but I'm still stressing about EVERYTHING...

we had a promise made, we were in love

Please click here to witness the most amazing thing ever done with bouncy balls and a beautiful song I discovered courtesy of Bones.

Heartbeats by Jose Ganzalez

One night to be confused
one night to speed up truth
we had a promise made
four hands and then away

both under influense
we had devine scent
to know what to say
mind is a razorblade

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

one night of magic rush
the start a simple touch
one night to push and scream
and then releaf

ten days of perfect tunes
the colors red and blue
we had a promise made
we were in love

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough

and you, you knew the hands of the devil
and you, kept us awake with wolf teeths
sharing different heartbeats
in one night

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

wow what a fail

So I was going to try to do BEDA...it isn't happening.  I don't have the time or the interesting life to blog every single day this month.

I went to they gym last night for the first time in FOREVER.  I took my friend Willa and she was like a kid in a candy store.  I think she tried everything in the room.  She's fitness savvy.  After working out we both did some much needed yoga.  I hadn't done yoga in forever either since some nice car thief took my mat along with my vehicle -_-

I started the search for a new mat today, and this website is seriously the best thing I've ever discovered.